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𝗛𝗼𝗹𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗦𝗽𝗮𝗰𝗲: A Full Moon in Cancer Reflection 🌕

Last year, I was losing faith in something (vague 𝘬𝘢𝘴𝘪 personal haha). With the little faith that I had left, I barely held on. This journey was some of the hardest ones I’ve ever had. I was at the pits of despair. This truly felt like an initiation by the Universe.

I had to cancel so many readings last year because I could not sleep the night before. My anxiety over the future kept me in separation. The future that I, ironically, the psychic, already knew was going to happen. I was so focused on what was happening in the undesired present moment, that I kept questioning God.

What saved my life are my pillars of strength: the people who held space for me. They held space, 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘢 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘺, but from a place of 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗻𝗴𝘁𝗵. They didn’t feel sorry for me, they knew I could handle it and that what I needed was grace, validation, comfort, and support. When I panicked, they listened. When I say things that I don’t mean, they remind me I’m much better than that. Sometimes, I’d get resentful when they get dismissive but I knew they were being this way because all my ranting and tears were wearing them down. I retreated and would only come out to cry again. Yet, they still comforted me.

Holding space to me means accepting and surrendering to any feelings and thoughts, withholding judgement, and being fully present for the person in need. Empathy is not a requirement for holding space. It is a double edged-sword. Empathy can heal but it has the effect of doubling the pain if there is no wisdom attached to it.

And so, after all that, the future came into present. I finally had my reward for keeping the faith.. My wish came true and all of what I have right now is beyond words! I’m glad I stayed true to myself no matter how tempting my ego wanted to take the easier unaligned path. I’ve finally gotten to the other side of the tunnel and here are my thoughts in retrospect:

Through everything I went through, I saw the truth: That the truly honest, strong, and authentic do not fear the multi-faceted expression of the human experience. Or if it does scare them, they face these feelings anyway (for both the giver and receiver of these emotions)… because they know know it is simply human to despair. Running away from certain feelings is a form of self-abandonment.

Strength, tolerance, and compassion are the building blocks of holding space

One of my favorite advice was this: “𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳. 𝘉𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦.”

What is real is never threatened. Fundamentally, it will always be love. I’ve done my part and I can’t say that 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘨𝘬𝘶𝘬𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘬𝘰. And I’m really proud of myself for that.

Thank you to all that held space for me. You know who you are.

🔮 𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗮 𝗽𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗺𝗲!

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